Lets Talk: Books and Queer Stuff

Lets Talk: Books I don’t want to be read and why I don’t want to.

Based on Whitneys blog post and live tweets I wanted to read The Bronze Horseman by Paullina Simons, but I really do not want to spend money on this book. The more I think about it, I feel like I’m already spending too much time on this book. At the same time, I want to share her thoughts on that book, just to spread awareness. I’ve heard of this book several times, and thought about reading it myself. But then I saw Whitney tweeting about it, and read her post on it, that I really don’t want to. Whitney shows excerpts of the book, with highlighted texts to give proof of what she says. Personally, Whitney’s strong view, with the highlighted extracts she provides, is enough to put me off  buying/borrowing and reading this book.

Lets Talk: Queer Stuff

On Reddit, I found a really interesting article about five questions trans people may be scared of asking. I identified massively with these questions, finding myself asking myself all of them constantly.

Am I really sure of this? Is this really who I am? -Who I should be? What if I’ll regret transitioning? Will this really make me happy? What about my mum? My future?

Truth is, thinking about all of my doubts, I now actually think that I have a future, and deserve a future. More often than not (despite not often enough), I realise I do deserve happiness and the path I am on now is bringing me more happiness than any other path could. I’m still confused, and every day, I doubt myself and my choices so many times. At the same time, this feels right.

Word of the Day

Japanese verb

Phrase of the Day

“The instant you speak about a thing, you miss the mark.” ― Zen Proverb

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Downtown Raymond
Dean Fuller

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August To-Be-Read

Reading List for August

North Korea: Undercover by John Sweeny
The Translation of Love by Lynne Kutsukake
Das geheime Vermächtnis des Pan by Sandra Regnier
Electra and other Plays by Sophocles
Top 10 Tokyo by DK Eyewitness Travel
Japan by Lonely Planet

Initial thoughts

Four of these are from the library, two of which are in preparation for my Japan trip in September. I know I can do a lot of research online, but sometimes it’s still nice to flick through a book. These also come with pull out maps, and I always enjoy looking at pull out maps.

I’ve already started reading The Translation of Love by Lynne Kutsukake, and so far I’m loving it a lot. I’m really enjoying the way it is written, and can’t wait to finish it. This is the first book I hope to finish really.

I also started reading Das geheime Vermächtnis des Pan by Sandra Regnier. I remember buying this years ago, and constantly trying to pick it up and read it, and every time I do pick it up to read it, I remember why I struggle to get into it. Naturally, it’s not aimed at my age group, but that usually doesn’t stop me from enjoying a book. The reason I picked this up, was because of elves and that kind of fantasy kind of theme. Even with the simple writing, I’d enjoy this book, and could be at least entertained by it. However, the main character never lets you forget how hot this one guy is, ever. Even when advertising the other two books in the series, there is this constant reminder that this guy is the hottest guy in London. It feels like Felicity reminds you of this every other sentence, just to reach a certain word count, and it just gets really boring.

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New York City
Joerg Schubert

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Typical British Summer: Rainy Days

Rainy Days: Read a book (or a few)

When the weather fails you, and you’re by yourself: pick up a few books, read and binge  watch Netflix shows, movies and youtube videos.

The Agricola and The GermaniaThe Agricola and The Germania by Tacitus

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

When I saw this in a second hand book shop, I was immediately interested in it. The introduction itself is lengthy and interesting. Having lived in Germany and England, and having a huge interest in historic aspects of both countries, this was an absolutely amazing find and an amazing read.

Britain and Germany are always compared to “contemporary Rome”, which allowed me to learn a bit more about historic Rome, as well. The character of Tacitus, despite the text having been translated into modern English, still comes through -for me anyway. The introduction does say, that there had been huge difficulties in translating his texts, since his personality is very dominant in his writing. Personally, I think they did as well as they could, without knowing the original texts, sources, etc.

Purely because of his personality, and the way the book is written, I’d recommend this book to a lot of people. For the writing alone is worth picking up this book. And it’s very short, but manages to convey quite a decent amount of information.

This book not only talks about the differing warfare of Britain and Germany, but also different germanic tribes and characteristics. I’m personally not one to enjoy reading much about warfare or anything like that, but I found it still very interesting.

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City Pink Nights

John Herbert

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I have a few bookmarks that are currently not in books. They’re not special (well, to me they are).

Some are, obviously, from Book depository. Others I have gathered on Holiday. Ashdown Forest is a Forest a drive away from where I live and is really beautiful.

Some other bookmarks are currently sitting in books. At some point, I’ll gather them all and see how many I actually have. I can’t remember when I last actually bought a bookmark. The only one I can see that I actually bought is the one from Ashdown Forest last summer.

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The Peaks 20/05/2017
Matthew Dartford


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Berry Book Day

It’s the end of january and I have finished all my assignments for semester one. Time to get ready for my last semester at University. I am determined to stay creative somehow.

The only books I have read this month are

  1. Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children by Ransom Riggs
  2. Assassins Creed: Forsaken by Oliver Bowden
  3. Broken Crowns by Lauren Destefano
  4. Captive Prince by P.C.Pacat

And the only books I have bought this month (as far as I can remember haha)

  1. Hollow City: The Second Novel of Miss Peregrine’s Peculiar Children by Ransom Riggs

January has generally been a bit of a roller coaster of a month. Today, I have been officially diagnosed with depression with anxiety. I’ve known for years, but now it’s official, I feel somewhat relieved. I am on anti depressants and hopefully I will get other help, too.I feel exhausted from being exhausted.

Quote of the day

Of all the books in the world, the best stories are found between the pages of a password 

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the early starter
Michael Marsh
Wall city
minoru karamatsu

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End of 2016 stuff

This is mostly bookish stuff. But there is some general stuff at the bottom.

Bookish things

I have not read as much as I had planned, and I hope to read a lot in the new year. This is something that happens every year, but I have stopped beating myself up about it. At the beginning of 2016, I took a deep breath and realised that I will just read as I want. I promised myself to just read for enjoyment and, as soon as this enjoyment goes, that I should take a step back and take a break.

Personally my favourite book this year has probably been Shatter Me by Tahereh Mafi. I love her writing, the story she tells through the characters, the characters are very intriguing and I cannot wait to read the rest of the series. Everything just fits together very well, and I am so glad I finally got into this series.

The tale of the Body Thief by Anne Rice is also one of my favourite books this year. In general, I love her writing. I do find it quite tiring to get through all of the nitty gritty. At the same time, I do enjoy the pictures she paints with her words.

I haven’t really done a very good job at keeping track of the books I have read this year, as much as I meant to do so. I have started a few books over summer (and recently), that I still need to finish.
One of these three books is Assassins Creed (AC): Forsaken by Oliver Bowden. Nothing like the games, as expected, but they are a very, very easy read. I fall back onto books like these, if not Harry Potter, if I am in a reading slump. For some reason, I started this book recently, but then got distracted by another book and finished that instead. Now I got caught up with Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children by Ransom Riggs instead, so the AC book will have to wait until 2017.
The second one is Lady Midnight by Cassandra Clare. This is purely taking so long because of it’s thickness to be honest. I am not a huge fan of Cassandra Clare herself, but I did enjoy The Mortal Instruments and The Infernal Devices a lot and felt somewhat obliged to try out this series as well. I don’t feel like I have favourite characters in this series yet, so I am finding it a bit difficult to really get into the series. I do hope that this will change the more I read. The plot is the main reason I want to carry on reading it. While we’re talking about Cassandra Clare, I still want to read The Bane Chronicles. Magnus Bane is one of my favourite characters so I really do not know why it is taking me so long to read this.

In the next year, I really want to read Stranger in a strange land by Robert A. Henlein and the books I got for christmas. These include Broken Crowns by Lauren Destefano, Captive Prince by C.S. Pascat and Fantastic Beasts: The Original Screenplay by JK Rowling. If I don’t read anything else, but these books (apart from academic reading), I will do well.

I still have to finish Harry Potter and the cursed child by J.K. Rowling. Before I got this book, I would’ve said, that this would be my favourite book, but the fact that I still have to finish it, is clearly a sign that it is not.

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Non-bookish End of the Year things

I don’t really know how I feel about the past year. I’ve definitely had some ups, but also a lot of downs. The most important thing I think I learnt in the past year is to take things into my own hands, to take control and not to wait around for great things to happen. I think I have grown quite a bit personality wise. Because 2016 has been a so-so kind of year, with more downs than ups, I really want to change my attitude in 2017 and really do some more memorable things, and live more.

To achieve some of my goals, which is to live more (I know it’s really broad but I know what I mean haha), I am going to take some steps away from social media, and Netflix and Amazon Prime and technology in general.

As always, this NYE I spend in my room. Alone, in my room, with family at home. Nevertheless, NYE has become something that isn’t memorable, or special. I hope to Hera that 2017 will be nothing like today. Dull and boring, not at all special. Hopefully, I will not be lonely, and have more memories to cherish and hold dear this time next year. I guess I can add that to my goals: be more open minded, get out there more, spend less on materialistic things, create more memories. The important stuff, because those are the things that really matter in life. The things that last longer than materialistic things. The things that actually put me in a better place, mentally.

Question of today: Top three favourite Movies you have seen this year?

I cant really pick one specific one, or three specific ones, because I can’t actually remember all of them. The ones I remember most  clearly are the ones I enjoyed most. I have enjoyed a lot of movies this year.

The ones that have done more than just entertain me are:

  1. Room
  2. The Danish Girl
  3. Star Trek: Beyond & Rogue one: A Star Wars Story

The 3 most entertaining movies, among others:

  1. Now you see me
  2. Zootropolis
  3. Kubo and the two strings

The things I have learned most notably this year are somewhat personal. Including the fact that I am, actually, boring. But also likeable. And that things are going to be ok.

Anyway. Off I go to drink my loneliness away. Happy New Year.

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Ryo Mukae

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Blogmas day 17: People at the cinema


I went to see Rogue One: A Star Wars Story today.

Yes, I do go to the cinema a lot. Thanks to having signed up to a Cineworld Card, I pay a certain amount of money every month and I can go whenever for /free/. If I went once, I’d easily pay anything between £7 and £9, even as a student. So if I go twice or three times a month, thats basically as much as the Cineworld card. Especially before we moved, I very easily went 4-6 times a month, if not more. So I definitely get my moneys worth.

Anyway, back to the movie. This was the first Star Wars movie I have ever watched. EVER. And I enjoyed it and am considering watching more Star Wars movies.

Every time during a movie, I notice certain people. Today I’ve actually made notes of the kind of people I remember having met during some of my cinema trips.

Recently, especially with the Star Wars movie, and Moana, but also many other times, there has been that ONE child who doesn’t stop talking and always sits really close to you, no matter where you sit. ALL THE TIME. And the parent just engages in the conversation. It’s quite annoying actually, I hope I was never that child.

Then there are those on a date. But there’s a difference between those on their first date n those couples who have their date night. Depending on movie and date, they’re usually quite cute, especially those on their first date. They’re all shy and awkward.

As always, on frequent cinema trips, I have also encountered that group of friends somewhere in the last row. They usually laugh at a lot of the things, and have that one friend who keeps yelling things in, one that can’t shut up talking, another who can’t stop laughing and another one who clearly regrets suggesting the cinema.

There’s also very often that one person, usually a child (or me), who drops their food before they even reach the seat. I actually manage to spill some of my popcorn on a guy once.

Then there are always those with really noisy food wrappings. I, out of experience and everything, either open my crisp packets or whatever before the movie starts or wait until there is a loud scene in the movie so I do not have to interfere with the movie. Sometimes, obviously, it can’t really be helped. In such a case, the quicker the better. But, naturally, some just like to fiddle with those wrappers and ruin entire moments in the movie.
There are also those who love to slurp their drinks real loud. Maybe I’m just super noise sensitive, but honestly, don’t do that. Please. It is super annoying.

A more recent discovery is actually that one adult, who takes their children to the cinema, and just very obviously is bored by everything. Yawning and staring at a bright screen. Out of all due respect, just don’t use your phone in a cinema full of people who might actually

I have to say, the most annoying thing is that person or child that can’t stop talking.

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Ben Williamson
Anthony Samaniego

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Blogmas 15: Own Voices


I am bi-racial. My dad has a black carribean background, and my mum is white british. I have never felt I belonged to the black community, nor the white community. I always felt alone and very quickly disassociated myself from everything around me. I remember my childhood/teenage years (9+)  feeling ridicilously numb. I never read a story where I found a character who looked like me, or who was like me. I identify as a man, and very open minded (wanna stick a label on it? Bi/pan, maybe poly? idk). I always avoided thinking about myself because I just thought I was a weird alien that accidentally landed on earth.  I kind of thought I was wrong, or sick, so I just ended up just going through all of those years feeling numb and just pushing my identity away. #OwnVoices is a brilliant thing and I want to thank Whitney for leading me to this hashtag.

Inspired video:

A list of books that are inspiring and may or may not influence my book buying: here


I took the Rail Replacement Bus to Uni today, and loved seeing the scenery from a different angle, passing by new views and villages I hadn’t really seen before. I thought it was all quite quaint. I even saw a pastelly pink manor like house, which I thought was quite amusing.

On a few occassions I somewhat embarrassed myself a few times, and wore breat at some point. But I made a joke out of it and we laughed. Briefly saw a friend, which was really nice and gave zir the bag of gifts for zir and zirs partner.

The meetings I had with tutors went quite well, and I have an idea of what I am doing over the holiday. It’s going to keep me busy and on my toes, but I will be fine. The more I can do now, the better.

I do have a feeling I overspend. I don’t feel like I have anything else to offer to my friends, so I buy things. I’m working on this insecurity, especially because some of my friends have pointed out that they like me because of me, not the things I buy for them.

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Upper Fraser Frozen Lake
Robert Downie

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Harry Potter Book Collection

Obviously, this is not a book, but look how cute he looks!
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This is obviously not a book either, but he’s part of Harry Potter. Just look at the details!
My German Hardcover Harry Potter series.
One of my English Harry potter collections, given to me by a good friend of mine.
My complete english paperback edition of Harry Potter.
Beedle the Bard in English and in German. I really love both editions.


Neither of these I own in German, both editions I owned twice at some point because I forgot I already had them…


One Wizards dictionary, a Harry Potter book calendar and a Friendship-book
One of my uncompleted series editions of Harry Potter, also given to me by a friend.
This is my favourite cover of them all, but the only one I have of this series. I want them all in hardcover, which aren’t cheap.


All of the Philosopher stone editions I own, including the illustrated version

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#2 in the series.
#3, and personal favourite of the series, because of Remus and Sirius.
#4. When rereading this series, this is as far as I can get, then I keep putting off rereading the others.
#5. The one that took me forever to finally get through. I literally spent a whole summer reading this one.
#6. Not gonna lie, pretty sure I cried.
#7. I cried. A lot. I have reread this book the least. In fact, I have only ever read it once. Time to reread it again.

So these are all my Harry Potter books at the moment. I am 100% sure I am going to add books to this collection this year.


Favourite Movies: Zootropolis

Zootropolis is my favourite movie at the moment. I’ve watched it four times already, and I bought the book. I can’t put it into words why I love it.


The book is so adorable and I love the characters and what the movie is about. I would very much recommend watching this movie.

These are the UK trailers:

Some facts on Zootropolis are here:

Ah, I want to go and see it again. Oh dear.

It’s not in my local cinema any more, and I cannot wait for it to be released on DVD so I can buy it and watch it every day.

~ Ciaran ~