Writing Challenge: Day 18

Day 18: Post 30 facts about yourself

  1. I love Harry Potter
  2. I’m a proud Ravenclaw
  3. I hate mushrooms
  4. I love travelling to Malaysia
  5. My favourite colour is blue
  6. I was born two months prematurely
  7. I have depression and general anxiety disorder
  8. I hate wearing a swimsuit
  9. But I love swimming
  10. I can’t remember ever being skinny
  11. When I was younger, I used to lie about what my favourite colour was. I just copied others
  12. I also used to lie about what I wanted to be when I grew up, and just copied other people
  13. I think I was about 13 when I thought about committing suicide for the first time
  14. I love the sea, but hate the feeling of stickiness after.
  15. I only really got into Photography, because a family friend once said I “had an eye for things” a few years ago. My stepdad had tried to get me into photography for years prior to this, but I wasn’t very interested until this moment.
  16. I started puberty when I was 9
  17. I was bullied for being the first person with a growing chest
  18. I was also called Gorilla at school, because of my skin colour
  19. My Granny left me a lovely doll. Her name is Sonya. She survived the bombings in Berlin
  20. I never thought I’d leave Germany. Now I can’t see myself ever moving back there
  21. Most of my friends are non-british. By “most” I mean all of my (few) friends.
  22. I used to ship Harry and Ron, Hermione and Draco.
  23. I also ship Harry with Cedric.
  24. Every summer, I promise I’ll lose weight before I go back to school/university. I usually just get fatter.
  25. I have brown eyes and black hair. In summer, some of my hair looks dark brown.
  26. I nearly had counselling once because of my suicidal tendencies, but we went on a family holiday instead.
  27. I have very fond memories of my childhood. Until puberty started. I then tuned all emotions out as best as I could.
  28. I once wanted a guitar so badly for Christmas, I got a new TV instead and nearly cried (I was such an ungrateful little shit, I hope nobody noticed. I hate myself for my materialistic selfish past)
  29. My favourite flowers are red roses.
  30. I love playing Harvest Moon games.

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See beautiful spot through the stone bricks
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30 Day Writing Challenge: Day 13

Day 13: What are you excited about?

I’m currently on holiday, but whilst scheduling this, I am VERY excited about the holiday. I can’t wait for the food, the (sandy) beach, the (warm) sea, and the wildlife. I just really love Malaysia. I also look forward to making plans with friends, and hope that some friends will be able to come over from Germany.

13 Things I am excited about on Holiday

I thought about doing a separate post for this, but it would be a shame to waste this opportunity to tell you some things I am excited about regarding my holiday in Malaysia

  1. Malaysia itself: Every time I visit Malaysia, it just feels like I’m going home.
  2. Food: The food in Malaysia is so delicious. I have not once had a bad meal. I can’t put it into words, quite how much I love the food in Malaysia. There, you can find so much different food: Malay, Chinese, Indian, and its all SO amazing.
  3. People: I also get excited to meet Malay people? They’re super nice and I just like being around people in Malaysia. They’re really friendly and kind.
  4. Photography: I actually really hope to try out Street Photography there. For some reason, nothing in the UK excites or inspires me. Hopefully, I am going to be inspired in Malaysia.
  5. Beach: I’m excited to sit on a sandy beach and enjoy the waves. I live by the seaside anyway, but a sandy beach in Malaysia is just that little bit more exciting and special to me.
  6. Pool: I actually really look forward to swimming in a pool? Pool, beach and Palm trees are like THE holiday aesthetics.
  7. Book & Beach/Pool: Weirdly, I also really look forward to reading a book either by the pool or by the beach, under some neat palm trees.
  8. Breakfast buffets: They’re amazing and diverse and just so good. I am going to eat ALL the food (apart from bread and the stuff that has very obviously got gluten in).
  9. Wildlife: The wildlife in Malaysia is amazing and I can’t wait to visit a nature reserve. There are also many geckos around, if I remember correctly. I love geckos, they’re super cute.
  10. Snorkelling: We’re going snorkelling, which I am super excited for. This kind of works with the last point. I love snorkelling in Malaysia. Once, I saw two baby sharks and they were adorable!
  11. Shopping: I used to get more excited about the shopping than I do now, since I am way too big to fit into any clothing there. But, I still enjoy the night markets there.
  12. Weirdly, even the flying there and travelling within Malaysia excites me. I’m scheduling this ahead of time, so I will probably feel differently about this at the time, but right now I am very excited about getting on a plane.
  13. Not being at Home: Just getting away from the usual surroundings is going to be amazing to relax and enjoy myself.

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Michael Marsh

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30 Day Writing Challenge: Day 12

Day 12: Write about five blessings in your life

  1. My first blessing has to go to my family, my lovely mum and my stepdad. They are both very supportive and loving and I just feel so blessed. I guess there are two blessings really. The fact I live with my family, even after coming out, and the fact that we have an amazing relationship.
  2. Honestly, I feel so blessed having the friends I have. They’re all so supportive, caring and such good friends. I haven’t lost any friends when I came out, and they’ve all just been great.
  3. Being able to go on holiday with my family. Not only are we going away together, but we’re also going quite far abroad. For as long as I can remember, my mum has always taken me on lovely and memorable holidays.
  4. Having money in my wallet, money in my savings account and money in my bank account is a HUGE blessing.
  5. Being able to have the education I have. My mental health has, fortunately, never stopped me from going to school, college or University. Now, I have finished 3 years at University, hopefully successfully and am applying to do my masters.

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Masashi Wakui

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30 Day Writing Challenge: Day Eleven

Day Eleven: Something you always think “What if…” about

I always think “what if…” regarding so many different areas of my life. Relationships, my gender identity and my weight for example.

What if … I had actually made an effort as a teenager to lose weight

What if … I had told my mum I wanted to be a boy when I was younger

What if …  I had reacted differently? Would we still be friends?

What if …  I had been neurotypical?

What if … I had grown up in England?

What if, what if, what if. As much as I spend time thinking about the what ifs, I spend more time thinking about what I have now, and how I can change the things I can change.

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30 Day Writing Challenge: Day Ten

Day Ten: Write about something you feel strongly about

Again, this is a weird topic to choose just one, and then write about it. I feel strongly about a lot of things, but I always find it difficult to find the words. Equal Rights is a thing I feel strongly about. Harry Potter is naturally something I feel strongly about. Good education & equal opportunities for all and reading are other things I feel strongly about, which all work together somehow.  I feel really strongly about my friends and my family. What do I choose to talk about?

This is actually more difficult than I thought it should be.

I feel strongly about Harry Potter, because that is one community, I definitely belong to. It doesn’t matter what colour my skin is, where I am from or how I sound like when I speak. It’s all about the Harry Potter universe and that’s amazing. I never felt German, even though I grew up there, speak the language and was schooled there. I don’t feel British, even though most of my family is, and speaking English allows me to express myself better than German. I’m biracial, but grew up in a dominantly white community. I feel like I don’t belong to either community. Sometimes, when I speak, I still sound German. But none of that matters in the Harry Potter Universe.

Harry Potter has always been that constant in my life, and has gotten me through so many rough patches (school/bullying, depression, anxiety). It gave me a world to escape in, and I have never found another world that quite did the same. So, to no surprise to anyone, I feel strongly about Harry Potter.

I feel strongly about family and friends. My mother is so important to me. I also feel so remarkably lucky, that I have such a good relationship with her and many other family members. All of my friends are so strong and amazing and supportive. I’d die for all of them, without a second thought.

With having finished my English Language and Linguistics degree, I decided I want to teach abroad. Not because that is seemingly the most obvious path to take with this degree, but because I feel strongly about giving people outside of Europe and USA a voice, if that makes sense. I don’t want to teach English, because I believe that it is a language everyone needs to learn to speak to get far in life, but because I believe that learning another language helps to understand your own culture and language, and your situation in the world. Growing up bilingual has given me greater sense of identity (despite not feeling German nor British) and a sense that language shouldn’t limit me in what I can or cannot do. I don’t just want to go out there and teach English, but give them general language skills in all the languages I speak, too, or am learning myself. Not being limited to that, I want to give people an equal chance to learn. I want to be able to give people the space to learn about their own language, culture and country, and to learn so much more beyond just the English language. I want to give people the opportunity to learn and grow, whether they are neurotypical or not, whether they are deaf, blind, both or neither. I guess I just want to give something of my good fortune back to those who aren’t given an opportunity. I’m not exactly sure what exactly this falls under. Good education, teaching, language? Possibly all.

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Hard work beats talent when talent doesn’t work hard
-Tim Notke

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Block City
Different Visions

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30 Day Writing Challenge: Day Nine

Day Nine: Post some words of wisdom that speak to you

Without resorting to google, I’m going to try and write some things down from the top of my hat (and then double checking google to actually find some words of wisdom, because who the fuck would listen to me)

Everything is temporary, it’s important that you keep going.
Never hesitate to ask for help

“Life is a journey and if you fall in love with the journey you will be in love forever.” -Peter Hagerty

“We forge the chains we wear in life.” -Charles Dickens

For words of wisdom, I enjoy to read zen orientated things.

101 Powerful Zen Sayings by Matt Valentine is something I think its interesting to read.

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Into the mirrored city
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30 Day Writing Challenge: Day Eight

Day 8: Share something you struggle with

I forgot to mention this yesterday, but I’m basically trying to stick to a 30 Day Writing Challenge that I mention in previous posts (such as here).

Back to today’s writing challenge. Sharing something I struggle with. I struggle with so much, how do I choose one thing to share, without over sharing…

I struggle with rain. I hate it on my skin. Showers are good, but not rain.

I struggle with Depression and General Anxiety Disorder. I had brief therapy for both and I’m on medication. My mind is a black hole, effecting everyone around me. Hence, I am (fucking finally) actively trying to be positive. Its heck of a mountain to climb. Not very successful at the moment. But I took a few first steps. Lets see how it goes.

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Złota
Tony Sellen

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Writing Challenge: Day 7

Day 7: List 10 Songs that you’re loving right now

Natives -Warpaint
Fantastic Beasts and Where to find them -Main Titles
Bry -Disarm
SYML -here’s my love
Busted -Coming Home
Busted -Those Days Are Gone
Twenty One Pilots -Stressed Out
Moana -How Far I’ll Go
Westlife -How To Break A Heart
Busted -Meet you there

Bonus:
Harry Styles -Sign of the Times

To be honest, most of these I’m loving now, and have loved ever since I first heard them. Some of them (looking at number 9 and 10 there) I have loved for many years now and still do. Now I feel like going through Steps, S Club 7, Boyzone and Spice Girls.

FUCK I FORGOT THE SPICE GIRLS. I LOVE THEM TOO. THERE ARE TOO MANY SONGS. And yes, I listen to pretty much all of them on an irregular regular basis. For some reason, I have huge difficulties attaching myself to new bands or anything. I guess I love Busted, Westlife and Spice Girls especially because I grew up listening to them. Moana holds a special place in my heart, because the entire movie and the music makes me feel happy. So does Harry Potter. But I doubt anybody is actually surprised that that one is in there.

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Taiwan 台湾
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30 Day Writing Challenge: Day Six

If you’ve only just tuned in, today is day six of a writing challenge I am taking part in. Day One is here, with the link to the Pinterest Pin.

Day Six: Five Ways to win your heart

Not that anyone would actually want to win my heart, but here you go.

  1. Talk Harry Potter to me, and I will melt. Added extra: Enjoy Harry Potter. Preferably the books.
  2. Love animals, Nature, Travelling and Food.Apart from Cats, which is point number five, I love a lot of animals too. I love nature, and travelling. I also love food. I’m crap at cooking so this only involves actually eating food.
  3. Be really passionate about something and suck me into what your passionate about.This is only a thing I noticed recently that it is a thing.
  4. Talk bullshit with me about movies, books and tv shows (and other things).
  5. Have a cat. Be a cat. Idk. Cats. I love cats. Big, small. Cats. Or puppies.

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Blue river surface with ripple
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30 Day Writing Challenge: Day Five

Day Five: List five places you want to visit

Out of all the places I want to visit, I can only name five. This seems rather fitting, since I am going on holiday to Malaysia very soon. But hence, I also feel like I cannot list Malaysia.

  1. Japan: I really, really, REALLY want to visit Japan, so much. From what I read and see and everything, I am so fascinated by the culture and everything. I really want to experience everything for myself
  2. Australia: Australia has been a country I wanted to visit since I was a child, purely because of the wildlife and Steve Irwin. He was so passionate about his work, I was determined to visit Australia and see/support the wildlife there.
  3. Canada: For some reason, I really want to visit the forests in Canada, and spend some peaceful time walking and hiking there, and I am not quite sure where this love for Canada comes from to be honest.
  4. America: So, the only reason I want to go there is to visit New York City, San Francisco, Seattle and the Harry Potter World in Florida. Like, thats pretty much it. I don’t know how long it takes to travel from one area to another, and spend time there, but thats all of the time I want to spend there.
  5. Italy: I’m not sure why, but I’ve also been wanting to travel to Italy for a very long time. The history there fascinates me, and I really want to try out all of the food there.

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