Day Two: Write Something that someone told you about yourself that you never forget
As I have mentioned in yesterday post, I’m doing the 30 Day Writing Challenge, inspired by a Pinterest pin.
This prompt is actually really recent and definitely not something that I am going to forget.
I have been told by two people that I am manipulative. They experienced me in such a way, so there is no doubt about it. Knowing that I came across that way is truly painful. I never intended to be manipulative or anything. Since these two people have told me this, I have been actively challenging the way I act and behave to other people, and being very mindful of my actions (verbally and otherwise). I genuinely hope this never happens again.
This is linked to some very emotional memories, that are still quite raw for me. Not that there is anything else to add to it really, but it may be a good thing not going into it -especially since the other parties aren’t here to give their side of all of this. I’d think it would be important to have their views directly from them and not paraphrasing them or anything.
I’m scheduling a bunch of posts and I sincerely hope this works!
Inspired by this pin on Pinterest, I thought I’d do the 30 Day writing Challenge. Day One is listing 10 things that make me really happy.
So here I go
The Harry Potter series
Remus Lupin / David Thewlis
Dogs, especially puppies
Going on Holiday
Historic Things, e.g. visiting castles
Going to the beach
Going on a walk in a Forest.
Well, that was easy and quick. I can already tell that day two is going to be really difficult, though. Otherwise, this challenge is going to be super interesting and is going to keep my fingers typing.
I’m also going on holiday, so I’m actually not sure how frequent I will be able to post stuff. At least four days will be super difficult because we’re going to be island hopping.
I have time and energy to pre edit some posts now, so writing them up will hopefully not be the problem.
Went to the local Farm Shop again today, and I love the display of pumpkins they have there. I’ve never actually tried Pumpkin, apart from Pumpkin Spiced Latte, and I’ve never carved a pumpkin either. But I like taking pictures of them.
I’m not actually doing anything myself today for Halloween, but I had friends over last night and we watched some movies and had some drinks. Tonight I’m just going to drink some more and watch some more movies by myself.
I don’t see anything wrong with doing things by myself, 99% of the time I go to the cinema by myself. I’m not going to go simply because the friends I do have are too far away or not interested.
The Movies I’m going to try and get through tonight are Casper, Descendants and Addams Family Values, perhaps even one Harry Potter Movie.
The words translate to Coffe and Cake And actually refers to a German tradition. It’s just a time people take, usually in the afternoon around 3pm or so, where one sits down with family and/or friends and eat some cakes and sweet stuff in general. Out of personal experience, there would either be coffe and cake, or just a snack or like an inbetween meal/snack between meals.
Quote of the day
“Fear of a name only increases fear of the thing itself.”
– Hermione Granger
Video of the day
Question of the day: What do you want to do when you finish Uni?
I honestly hate this question because the only thing I can ever answer with is find a job, earn money and/or travel. Thats all I am aiming for, nothing too precise or anything. Keeping it broad, just so I can’t actually disappoint anybody next June when nothing much actually happens.
This means having a very blissful appearance, derives from Latin and is an English word, since the 17th century.
Poetry of the day
“He’d been let down so often
His brow was on the floor
But then they found
A small hole in the ground
And let him down some more”
― David Thewlis
Video of the day
Question of the day: Why do you like Photography? What got you into it n how?
I initially wanted to take photos to “remember” events, faces, activities and stuff. My stepdad tried to get me into photography, but it wasn’t until somebody mentioned on holiday, that I seem to have “an eye” for it. For years I played around with my stepdads camera until I got my own and it was my way of being creative and a good hobby. Something I can lose myself in.
It’s a Middle English word, and, according to this online dictionary, it has various meanings, including brave and strong. It reminded me of the german word for stahl, which is steel. But Stalwart in german roughly translates to “stramm”, which in fact translates back to “tautly” or “sturdy”
Quote of the day:
I think there’s some connection between absolute discipline and absolute freedom.
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Question of the day: What would you do if you could travel into the past?
I think I would try and focus on some personal stuff. I would travel back in time to tell my past self to get their act together. Or I would go even further back, to tell my grandmother how much I loved her, or travel back even further to get a glimpse of more of my family, or past lives in general. Ideally, I guess, I would like to constantly try and travel back, just to learn and observe, to try and solve crimes and such like. I’d love to find out what happened to the Princes Edward and Richard in the Tower of London. Purely for educational reasons.
Today has vaguely looked like a nice lovely day. Nice weather, some time with my mum in Brighton, a nice lunch. If it weren’t for certain annoying people we live with, today could’ve been quite nice, but alas. There are annoying people around.
Being able to take a step away from Uni without feeling semi guilty from having missed lectures, I feel like my strength bars in dealing with life are being recharged. At the same time, because of school kids having a week off next week, I dread leaving the house for various reasons and it is eating me up already. I know I can’t really take any more time off, especially because of a presentation I have to do on friday. It’s stressing me out more than it should and I hate it.
Trying to distract me, as this isn’t something I can solve, I might watch my favourite movie and eat some chocolate.
This word means something along the lines of “dimwit” and I love saying it. It amuses me more than it should be.
Ihr seit solche Dumpfbacken!
You’re all such dimwits!
Quote of the day:
“I’m not clumsy, I’m accident-prone!”
– Daniel Radcliffe
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Question of the day: What are your secret survival strategies?
To be honest, I don’t have “survival”strategies. I tend to disassociate and really do not cope very well with a lot of things at the moment. I’m reading through self-care practices just to mentally take care of myself, because my mental health is struggling so much right now. Today, I went for a little bit of shopping, and went to see the Jack Reacher movie. I’m sure I can get through the next few days without crying too much!
Mindfulness is something I often fall back onto. It’s not a secret survival strategies, but holy cow, it really helps. Uncluttering a small area, and unplugging for a bit really helps. Just the usual, really. A nice hot bath or shower, a walk, sitting somewhere quiet and focusing on the world around you, cloud-watching. I live semi close to the sea (not as close as before, sadly), but listening to the waves is relaxing, too.
Idk, man. Just take care of yourself and do what is best for you. & sometimes you just gotta be a bit selfish. Life is a kuddelmuddel, and sometimes, the best way to deal with a mess and a bit of chaos, is to sit back and relax a little.
Kümmere dich um deine Seele – take care of your soul.
It’s another noun, and I like the look of it. For some reason, the german spelling reminds me a bit of fairies, or elves.
Question of the Day: Am I worthless?
This is pretty much how I feel all the time. I don’t feel like I have friends. The friends I think I have I feel like I’m not the same to them as they are to me and I’m bitterly salty about that and the fact that I’m feeling so bitter and salty about it. This morning, I had a really low moment, but I think I recovered.
Video of the Day:
I’m proud I have managed the week so far as best I could with what is going on at home and at Uni. I’m so glad it’s finally thursday again, and I don’t have to worry about stupid, non-existent trains to Uni (because they’re on strike. Again. And all the trains from my nearest train station to my Uni campus have been replaced with Buses) and I can hopefully focus on some reading, catching up and taking care of myself, despite some shit going down because of one particular idiot in the house.
Well, theoretically, yes. Born and raised there. But I have a british mother, and a british granddad. My Granny is German. It’s a weird story. I don’t know a lot of the british side of my family, and the only person I know from the german side, who is still alive, is my great auntie and her husband. They’re lovely people and I miss them dearly.
In Germany, I always felt British, even though I couldn’t remember ever visiting Britain. Now, living in Britain, with a british passport, I don’t feel German. But I also do not feel british at all. I used to hate my slight accent and the way I pronounce certain words. It would upset me, that I didn’t have a country to call home. Now, after three years of Uni and a lot of character development, I realise that the world is my home. I feel content with that fact, not being tied to a particular place. It is feeding my interest to travel and to explore. The way I talk has been described as “cute”, so I’ll just go with that. I’ll make it part of who I am.
Studying English language and linguistics has just proven to me how ridiculous it actually is to dream to “sound” english, when there is no one way to sound that way. Sounding like the Queen is not what the English language is about.
And the question of “Who am I?”, which was the question I was going to originally ask, is way to broad, way to complex, and way too deep. To be honest, the answer to that question is still a work in progress anyway.
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Quote of the day: I think sometimes when you begin to examine things – like yourself – suddenly you can just freak out and not want to go any further (x) – Bonnie Wright
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Word of the day: der Spiegel
I don’t know why, but nouns are the easiest thing for me to think of at the moment. This noun translates to “the mirror”. An example sentence: “Der Spiegel haengt dort an der Wand.” -“The mirror is hanging on the wall over there.”
Slight headache. Living-with-Fosterchildren-problems. I admire social workers n all. Not a productive day in a sense of doing a lot of work, but I cought up with a friend, which was lovely.